taking care of men with cancer

men with cancer will grudgingly let you hold their penises
as they pee into the filthy hospital toilet but then they will
stumble into you and rue you because you can
enter my brother who pushes me hard as i steady him
i mean are you going to let the BIG fucker smash his
beautiful face on the cold tiles? later bloodpours almost inexplicably
men i suppose women too all people well most except my
mother eke agency i used to call it will until my husband’s
chordoma taught me to go public with my impotence my privacy decimate
agency ignite 💥 💥 am i tough enough rough enough hard enough?
and i hate this i hate the treacle the well meant did he
have to relearn anything? no he’s exactly the same
to a tee FORRRRRRRE!
but i won’t forget soon the voiceless growl he greeted me with
on the first stretcher and the tall Russian man who carted us
to the imaging rooms where i said close your eyes don’t look
it was 3am 23 hrs after
i woke up
on the first day
of the
rest of my life
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Summer Solstice 2024 ..saviour complexes suck..
do avert eyes from sad hallway skeletons on gurneys alone


