with one bare hand i lifted a boy
who weighed almost as much as me
from the tallest tree in our vicinity
hands up if u know who helped me?
(*addendum to Spence Spence)
he had designs on my elevenyearold body
Mr. Spence perv+lurchlike greasy greasy hair
no Elvis just plain ugly
he’s dead now had me on his lap at his big brass desk
i was blossom+pre-skank as the initiated know 11 yr. old girls
reek of pheromones
he stopped short of full-blown virginsacrifice he’d
met my father who resembled a linebacker i suppose
Spence Spence preyed more fully on the unprotected dejected
the ones who would later be my child clients in the
temenos of pain it was also in that year i saved a
brother’s life as he hung from a tree by his hoodie
had Spence touched me i’d have shived him with the
very same knife i used to cut my brother out of a tree
shrieking like a girl banshee
..it was she who seduced me..
(Humbert Humbert Lolita 1955)
Last Day of 2021 ..goodfuckingriddance..
she’s a queen in exile furstole silkgowns
elbow length satingloves now mine
in exile from her she who has grown jitter
+balanceshot but we remember that queen
redhair streaming not in a river not ophelia
mother couldn’t swim drive or cycle but she can fly
Winter 2021 ..for F..
idiot games marriage is not everyday but mostly
jostling archangels + antichrists
come to save u
on the other hand there are moments of transcendence
where nirvana smells
like your husband’s fibrillations
..mounted one on top of another in idiot games and wanton lust..
(Virginia Woolf To The Lighthouse 1927)
Winter 2021 ..for ASC.. 31 yrs..💘..lumbersexual extraordinaire
*your fate if u can’t answer the riddle
entropy+atrophy are having a party in my soulhole
not to mention the carnival atmosphere in my body
dying cells slamdance as giblets savoury sold at
hot dog stands
FINAL THIRD! the carnis bark STEP RIGHT UP!
old ladies petrifying gents come one come all (if u still can)
but i would never trade the inside for 25 yr. old outsides
a superbody quarterly would do
one brother recently suggested i jump up+down for a blocked ear
i just stood there +demented j u m p ?? but it was when he
encouraged legkicks that things grew Lucy
now on the floor
those fucking kicks
led me to believe
something is rotting
Winter 2021 ..omi can kiss my old white..
what a world! when i cant even get a free beer
a man said this in front of the LCBO Liberty Village TO
let’s be clear it’s hipster paradise in there
but sans liberty cause everybody’s attached to being ubercool
me too but old brokendown cool like father all backbroke +jazz
he hated Mick with a passion +now i see why
scrawny unbrawny +decidedly NOT Slim Harpo i know things gonna
get tougher but it’s okay i’m regularly in the zone with various swamis
who have been meditating for 4.2 million staryears
did u know that the stars u see tonight don’t even exist? burned out
billions of lightyears ago just like your libido so may the force entwine u
with your BIG DREAM the one u still glimpse at the edges
better get cracking though
tomorrow today will be yesterday
and so will yous
Winter 2021 .. still slouching toward Frisco ..to be born..
something gross happened in the shower on friday
(NO! not that) earwax+water=cement husband’s
bloviations now below the radar
bros called me earwig soulsister +a largesse woman
named Olga said: if it’s impacted it’s a grand more bitch
this in Yorkvile where skinny leather jeans cost $1,995
(and almost zero cows die in the making)
did u know that sound+touch are inextricably bound?
like love+chainsaw etc.
if u can’t hear dick u can’t feel dick
sort of like that other thing u thought
i was doing
in the shower
Winter 2021 ..Apsie? Apsie?..
sometimes i go diatribal a bit like going psycho
zillions of words come to me some fit into stories nicely
others are not so nice all cancergory +fetid
it’s fucking wordglory people!
Allen Ginsberg wrote regularly on psilocybin +won a Pulitzer
I want to know what happens after I rot
because I’m already rotting
and who wants to get fucked up the ass really?
my ass drags in the universe I know too much
and not enough (Mescaline 1961)
i write unstoned+whiteknuckle but soon the magic shroom
will be legalized i tried them at 12 +Jesus called me into our
ravine where witches giants +our long dead grandfather hungout
now spat out +decrepit i’m learning how to ride the waves so fuckchaos
creepy armskin +omi i will rise up again somewheres
Winter 2021 ..youth she’s wasting..