songanddancegirl

ASCENDING

ASCENDING     & DESCENDING

Taylor had  D.I.D.*   so did his mother

His father (who is also his grandfather)

babysat when he was 2    It is thought

that Grandpa died in the morning and

that Taylor sat with him   and on him

until  mother arrived at 5

One day in a session  after we called 911        (who didn’t come)

I said: Why the hell don’t you  HURRY!

in a flurry of countertransferential rage

Taylor was not impressed:  Therapist never say  hell     it’s a bad word

Later when he was 10 we practised  the future:

dating   marriage    dinners at Olive Garden 

a daughter named Brit   and a bunker in the

basement for storms or the apocalypse

Therapist:  I will protect you

Taylor:  But what if they have guns?

Therapist:  I will always do the best I can   no matter what

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Spring  2013

* Dissociative Identity Disorder: a rare disorder in which two or more

personalities with distinct memories and behavior patterns exist in one

individual; attributed to disruptions in memory caused by trauma

ALL VIOLINS

ALL  VIOLINS       BROKEN

They  showed you  to me   today

You looked about 70   chic   salt & pepper       & dashing

You circled around me as though you

would  reach out   I knew they  orchestrated

this because I won’t be here in 46 yrs. to see

you    in your   dapper glory

I knew too that  I was standing between       dimensions   

And maybe your 70 yr. old self is looking at me

thinking   how can this be?

It’s like when I saw my father approaching me

down in the subway   an old sick man shuffling along     in his slippers

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Spring  2013    Songanddancegirl     Allen Ginsberg       

Walt Whitman 1855  Who need be afraid of the merge?

ADAM’S

ADAM’S  PRIVATES

A little brown haired girl

is staring at

the black Rodin penis

Why is it so big

another child

wonders?

An interesting question

I look at it

semi-erect –

& don’t think

it’s so big

I like the smooth

black bluntness

of it

Like a sawed off

shotgun

I stand and take

another look

Why   It’s Rodin’s Adam!

First man

Compact penis

Plump belly

Tight marble ass

First Class

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Winter  2009   A.G.O.

A DAY

A  DAY    IN  THE  LIFE

Sometimes your head can hurt

from dreaming too hard

Mostly about the future:

Where to live ?

How much money you’ll have ?

As though all of this noise

guarantees you a place there

I have now aged into the future

that I have always imagined

And it is nothing like I imagined      it would be

I’m still here though   slowly growing

accustomed to the fact   that I will    not be

All the talk about being   in the moment     Buddhist trickery

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Winter  2008