at about 60 i developed a new laugh not a cackle exactly
though one brother anointed it mad as in: u sound insane ape
now bug off
but u know there is truth in madness +this laugh is the truth
it has balls
it has legs
it is a reaction-formation against 60 fucking years of being largely
polite caught in the craw like cassandra unhoark (ewww) ok
how else to describe it?
a bloodluster er?
it once escaped as a cousin was bloviating on her dead father’s
goodness the resulting fracas even bigger than the original sin
for this i was called hitler’s evil twin even as a child !
so should i keep the laugh or ice it? laugh exorcisms are costly
so too being possessed of a madlaugh who cackles the truth
like shit through a goose
(No one is ever more his/herself than when they really laugh..
their defences are down..it’s very zen-like.. George Carlin )
Spring 2021 ..unlaughed laughs cause hemorrhoids..