momento mori
(earliest known lighthouse woman.. circa 1785)
my old mother chose a lighthouse to paint before she knew
how dark it would get as the alchemists say: nigrum nigrius nigro
black blacker than black u know that dark nigredo place where u
are forced to transform willingly or unwillingly
it will be very dark the constant refrain of a child client named Archie
immortalized in my treatise The Dark Witch of Countertransference
Resistance penned twenty years ago
+ it has grown darker these past few years death the great big black hole
swallowed a brother but wait! maybe death is the meditation state the part
where u are in the deeps + it is nigrum to the max
with the monkey mind finally anesthetized a light shines behind your eyes
SO BRIGHTLY you never want to return to embodiment not a death wish
rather a LIGHT wish c’mon light sabres at the ready!
old mother is lighting the way today she forgot what that tall white tower
with the beacon is called she is a monk now forgetting+remembering
that the light is calling her home
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Fall 2021 RIP.. Blackie Blacksonavitch 1966 -1979
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