shotfullofholes like bonnie parker
before
borrowing what’s left of my ego on loan
for 6+ decades for the uninitiated this can
feel like vampirism in reverse cannabalism is never pretty and it hurts to be pretty
she always said this as hairbrush raked
through lush curls tearing at knots 100 lashes
years later with a mute client of a mute mother who ran away
her sessions consisted of: her sitting on my lap brush my hair therapist
she stopped coming when funding ran out shaved her head as i am about to?
loaning your ego is blood suck incubusoverload devoured by
the wounded moats with gators in ’em are good in these instances
suckers want your strength want to live inside u u the host ess
with the most ess (in yiddish ess is eat…duh!)
one night in a posh hotel in a picaresque town where trinkets abound
in the dead of night in your twin doubles u awaken
to a persistent pressure at the edges of your previously permeable boundary
+there stands the childhood creature hairy+black
a bit mother-ish a bit hagfromhell-ish pressing keening
let me in! your house is whole holy mine is leaking
shot full of holes and i’m cold too
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after
Bonnie Parker Barrows Poet+Bankrobber
SPRING 2020 ..resurrection around the corner..and if u believe that..
i have a piece of land in florida..