you’ve got the eyes of a stranger
alchohol
sodium
ennui
the usual suspects
said a brother who does not lean lugubrious
he is usually quite even keel except in those few
seconds the other day when i didn’t recognize him
we stood a foot apart quite close he’d appeared
without warning dropping a case of holy water to
the floor it was moving day for our 97 yr old maw
+ with a sharp rasp he ordered me to move a
fuckingchair through my PPE + his i discerned
a cageyman a man who had likely been to prison
with muscles veiled eyes cold hard dangerous
must be all the sodium+ennui he is usually quite
pleasant but not so much after i’d hit him sidelong+sucker
no one talks to me like that sailor
my own covidalchemy of fear stress
sugar old sorrows come to life that
sort of shit led to the punch
to the moon Alice!
to the moon!
we continue to circle around each other uneasy +stealth
what i saw in those inarticulate seconds
happened once before as i sat at a pool
with my fiancé of 4 yrs
who is this curly headed boy ? i had no idea
+ i married him anyway divorced after 6 yrs there
are moments when he is still here but mostly he isn’t
now with wife #3
+a daughter who
visits me
in my dreams
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Summer 2021 .. the transmutation of jason miles+gary mark gilmore..
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