freedom tastes like reality
another close call as in within inches of my life
this time an umbrella helicoptering in a freak gust
of wind
we’re talking inches people ditto the rock (not him!)
near miss last Saturday annihilation squandered
yet again
on my way toward the umbrella strangely thinking
about a story my newly dead mother told me repeatedly
happened while she strutted down an NYC street circa 1943
pushed out of path of a runaway tire at 19 lived another 79 yrs
(now that’s mazel!) some here too yesterday lost a sparklyblue
sapphire bracelet Swarovski
fall leaves everywhere a blue elasticband near severed head of
chickadee i trod on+on again fabulous mom’s words ringing
it should be the most important thing you ever lose
said re: wallets glasses pens virginity
the mist lifted +there near purebreddoggie diarrhea the bracelet
all dungbeetle+glinting on the walk home reflecting on her losses
the most important things ever to lose
children breast husband homes parents sisters friends joie de vivre
she died naturally mild infection sunrise jazz +as i face a brand
new year 5784 with the freedom of being freshly orphaned i sense
that she is THE MOST IMPORTANT THING I HAVE EVER LOST
along with the last shreds of my immortality i remember too her
bottomless grief for her mother ditto me bottomless motherless
and free ?
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get married have kids come for dinner come for holidays cook clean cook
don’t go to school be a slave take the yoke smile darn ya smile
New Year Fall 2023 ..now what?..
songanddancegirl 