sinister kid rides again (not a short poem)
(the fershtinkin boy)
my entire life flashed in an instant unrecognizable
+doppelgänger spat out at 70 where is the little (fershtinkin)
house with yellow walls +a turqoise bedroom? where
my thirty something husband? BIG MAN BIG DREAMS
GIANT GLUTES hockey lifer
that’s my fave muscle don’t fuck with it!
i told his surgeon 40 yrs later
(now an 8″ scar)
spinal-fluid redux
where the children who visited weekly? the (fershtinkin) boy
running ahead of his parents wobbly still wobbly a filmie
now in his 30’s my age when i met him
WHERE DID EVERYONE GO?
reminiscent of old mother who said over+over again Ape where is everyone?
she the last woman standing ancient crone it goes fast something akin to
shock awe+bewilderment on her face the Reap hunched+singing to her nightly
O the memory-haze the daze of being young+vibrant lean beauty queen
bewitching father all the way to an early grave we eventually had to place
security cameras outside her door the Reap’s incessant ringing of her bell
fodder for psychiatric mind-fuck oh it’s just tinnitus+death anxiety (!)
said Dr. Von Leiff (the old bitch) mother dead within 6 months of these
nocturnal visits
for whom does the bell toll? shotgun to head for Ernest to the heart for
Frank Stanford Anna K by train Virginia W by river Sylvia Plath by oven
ok i’ll stop strange creatures unto death while in the bloom of life the
forever putrifacto (..beings unto death.. Marty Heidegger 1927)
i sort of remember the details but all of a sudden that life those former worlds
selves others all less here less contiguous less real more phantasm vision myth
did it all even happen?? probably not mum put salt in her shoes so the Reap
wouldn’t scoop her ditto the blood on doors of Jews Exodus:12 so the Angel of
Death would pass on by +he did
he stopped ringing mum’s doorbell too
she is on a beach in Aruba now
she never writes she never calls
laissez les bon temps rouler
all of this
is magic against death
all of this ends
with to be continued
(Frank Stanford 1974)
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Summer 2026 ..RIP Daddybird.. May 21, 1921 – August 16,1989)
songanddancegirl 