have u ever had to forgive someone?
christians believe in forgiveness jesus likely
invented it and it was a good thing of course
civilization depends rides on its back without
it we are perpetually vengeful old testemented
unable to forgive the slavedriver’s whip
but have u ever had to forgive someone anyone?
the ones who would keep you from a dying brother
rape you murder your parents i mean i could go on and on
yes forgiveness is a beautiful thing hope its illegitimate
bastardchild
have u ever tried to forgive someone anyone? that’s an
interesting question my pure as the driven snow born
again husband said never having confronted the daily
grind of it iloveuihateuiloveuhateuhateu hateu
and have u ever done something because u don’t want
to look bad for not having done it?
forgive me father
for writing a maudlin poem
forgiveness is the balm of gilead
it gives u back your name in the long dark night
your dignity after throwing glasses and expletives
around and the many will come dance on your grave
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Winter 2019 ..for Martine..
the less I needed
the better I
felt.
something in me
relaxed, smoothed
out.
i no longer had to
prove that I was a
man,
I didn’t have to prove
anything.
I began to feel good,
I began to feel good
in the worst situations
I welcomed shots of
peace, tattered shards of
happiness.
(Charles Bukowski Let It Enfold You)
