songanddancegirl

"It's about words, and words are all I have…"

have u ever had to forgive someone?

christians believe in forgiveness   jesus likely

invented it  and it was a good thing  of course

civilization depends   rides on its back   without

it we are  perpetually vengeful  old testemented

unable to forgive the slavedriver’s whip

 

but have u ever had to forgive someone  anyone?

the ones who would keep you from a dying brother

rape you   murder your parents   i mean i could go on    and on

yes  forgiveness is a beautiful thing  hope  its illegitimate

bastardchild

 

have u ever tried to forgive someone  anyone?  that’s an

interesting question  my pure as the driven snow  born

again husband said  never having confronted the daily

grind of it   iloveuihateuiloveuhateuhateu  hateu

 

and have u ever done something because u don’t want

to look bad for not having done it?

 

forgive me father

 

for writing a maudlin poem

 

forgiveness is the balm of gilead

it gives u back your name in the long dark night

your dignity  after throwing glasses  and expletives

around   and the many will come dance on your grave

__

 

 

Winter 2019  ..for Martine..

the less I needed
the better I
felt.

something in me
relaxed, smoothed
out.
i no longer had to
prove that I was a
man,

I didn’t have to prove
anything.

I began to feel good,
I began to feel good
in the worst situations

I welcomed shots of
peace, tattered shards of
happiness.

(Charles Bukowski  Let It Enfold You)

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