she’s a queen in exile furstole silkgowns
elbow length satingloves now mine
in exile from her she who has grown jitter
+balanceshot but we remember that queen
her wraithbody
redhair streaming not in a river not ophelia
mother couldn’t swim drive or cycle but she can fly
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Winter 2021 ..for F..
idiot games marriage is not everyday but mostly
constant jousting
jostling archangels + antichrists
come to save u
on the other hand there are moments of transcendence
between bullshit+dryrot
where nirvana smells
like your husband’s fibrillations
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..mounted one on top of another in idiot games and wanton lust..
(Virginia Woolf To The Lighthouse 1927)
Winter 2021 ..for ASC.. 31 yrs..💘..lumbersexual extraordinaire
*your fate if u can’t answer the riddle
entropy+atrophy are having a party in my soulhole
not to mention the carnival atmosphere in my body
dying cells slamdance as giblets savoury sold at
hot dog stands
FINAL THIRD! the carnis bark STEP RIGHT UP!
old ladies petrifying gents come one come all (if u still can)
but i would never trade the inside for 25 yr. old outsides
a superbody quarterly would do
one brother recently suggested i jump up+down for a blocked ear
i just stood there +demented j u m p ?? but it was when he
encouraged legkicks that things grew Lucy
now on the floor
writhing
those fucking kicks
led me to believe
something is rotting
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Winter 2021 ..omi can kiss my old white..
what a world! when i cant even get a free beer
a man said this in front of the LCBO Liberty Village TO
let’s be clear it’s hipster paradise in there
but sans liberty cause everybody’s attached to being ubercool
me too but old brokendown cool like father all backbroke +jazz
he hated Mick with a passion +now i see why
scrawny unbrawny +decidedly NOT Slim Harpo i know things gonna
get tougher but it’s okay i’m regularly in the zone with various swamis
who have been meditating for 4.2 million staryears
did u know that the stars u see tonight don’t even exist? burned out
billions of lightyears ago just like your libido so may the force entwine u
with your BIG DREAM the one u still glimpse at the edges
better get cracking though
tomorrow today will be yesterday
and so will yous
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Winter 2021 .. still slouching toward Frisco ..to be born..
something gross happened in the shower on friday
(NO! not that) earwax+water=cement husband’s
bloviations now below the radar
bros called me earwig soulsister +a largesse woman
named Olga said: if it’s impacted it’s a grand more bitch
this in Yorkvile where skinny leather jeans cost $1,995
(and almost zero cows die in the making)
did u know that sound+touch are inextricably bound?
like love+hate
like love+chainsaw etc.
if u can’t hear dick u can’t feel dick
sort of like that other thing u thought
i was doing
in the shower
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Winter 2021 ..Apsie? Apsie?..
sometimes i go diatribal a bit like going psycho
zillions of words come to me some fit into stories nicely
others are not so nice all cancergory +fetid
it’s fucking wordglory people!
Allen Ginsberg wrote regularly on psilocybin +won a Pulitzer
I want to know what happens after I rot
because I’m already rotting
and who wants to get fucked up the ass really?
my ass drags in the universe I know too much
and not enough (Mescaline 1961)
i write unstoned+whiteknuckle but soon the magic shroom
will be legalized i tried them at 12 +Jesus called me into our
ravine where witches giants +our long dead grandfather hungout
now spat out +decrepit i’m learning how to ride the waves so fuckchaos
creepy armskin +omi i will rise up again somewheres
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Winter 2021 ..youth she’s wasting..
my bestfriend at 14 was named Joni +she positively
stank of sex my big bro gave her sidelong glances +sniffed
in our spare time we listened to the other Joni +smoked pot
suburban TO circa 1972 i’m sure she went all the way!
my younger freakish bros employed as narcs by the CIA counter
espionage by day +skulking in alleyways told my father who
banned Joni 💔 they’re still pretty uncool
Joni’s beautiful mother Shirley died this year a round hippie chick
married to a butcher named Lou my jazzcat father cast aspersions
on their faux bouvier too (bouvier my assss)
i still love the 2 Jonis one in a wheelchair the other unmothered
i hope the scent of sex still wafts up my friend Joni is 64 how much
more will there be?
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FALL 2021 ..the pen is more powerful than the sword boyce..
do u have a roster of carpetbaggers in your family?
all sleaze+imposter feigning love ardently especially
during heroin addiction date rape and the like
u probably do not
reminiscent too of the d’Urbervilles sham aristocrats preying
in this case the mud of Poland+the dung of Kenora embedded in
their shoes blahniks
not unlike themselves embedded in my psyche flotsam+jetshit
now being excised from my heart one chunk at a time was i born
to be kind?! clearly a curse but hey the last shall be first eh
fucklove
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Fall 2021
..last MRI of this poet’s heart..
i was given a painting of the simple word UNDO in pink
it is still wrapped but one day soon in a house near blue water
i aim to hang it
as a symbol of my abandon (a little like tom petty in his room up top)
hands up if u need to be undone unclutched unfucked
undo
the masks
unfuck
the naked ape
unclutch
my mother’s hands
from my wrists
preventing+unrelenting
of my pursuit to
leave the house
so what does UNDO mean to u?
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Fall 2021
she races across the city whenever death visits my family
hurried + schadenfreude arriving breathless with evil-envy glow
this has been going on for 49 fucking years
either i was the most exciting thing that ever happened to her or
she is my stalker someday to shiv me mid-shiva her name is Cindi
her best friend Ruby (who was a babe) stole her Polish fiancé Harold
his sister was my camp counsellor at 10 +my big bro bedded her on my
mauve bedspread many a shabbas eve circa the Summer of Love
he is stardust
now golden
finding his way
back to the garden
RIP Marty
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(yes she stalked me at his shiva too..)
Fall 2021 ..long may u run Martino..
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