songanddancegirl

HOLY HOLY CORONAVIRUS! BATMAN🦇

my father was a real live cowboy  he came with

horses

boots

hat

dogs

cows

+ a goat  (billy  who fell hard for a brother)

mother doesn’t remember him much  96 yr. olds

live in the moments between meals  and nowadays

say things like:  it’s a good time to be dead  +  i feel like crying+dying

but she really doesn’t mean it!  she has always been

a dramaqueen  didn’t pass it on to me  no  it was to

a brother  who  is not here to rail against this shitty batvirus

another kind of virus took him down  october 21, 2018   metastatic+mortis

did u know there are hundreds of batcorona viruses

circulating among our herd each year?  perhaps our

batman🦇mythos  where batman becomes a god-protector

is kind of like jesus fighting Lu

but how does this explain robin?  hmmmm  well another

brother ran around  in cape+tights   and has reinstated

these  as he fights  the pricklycovidjoker  on deathlydowntown nights

riddle me this: why are we so docile facing the batshit abyss?

how come the hordes are not fighting back  like said brother?

perhaps people in glass houses should not throw stones  or

drink lysol  or harangue others who had bayonets pointed at ’em  24/7

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CoronaSpring  2020

a denturist from dartmouth + a virus from china🦇

have ruined my 63rd birthday  but hey

i was already half-crazed  some would

say  fourfifths   but on this day  in the midst

of  respiratorymayhem  the screw  she turns

so  have i been screwed royally?   hell yes! 

is covid the last emperor of china?  quite likely

today i will sport my inches of grey  with faux

joie de vivre  +whitecankels

and deep inside  where i used to hide  shelter in place

resides a febrile elation  battling for survival  and

world domination

bring it!

bat-eaters +cow-towers

i am not an animal   (in a wet market  being tortured)

I am batshitcrazy  BATWOMAN!🦇🦇

and i stand by this poem

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psychic spies from China

try to steal your mind’s elation

(Red Hot Chilli Peppers  Californication) 

CovidSpring  2020  ..hands of my elation motherfuckers..🦇

rebelrebelignominy

why does a guy with a burgeoningbird + a covidcough

follow me on my lonely walks?  (my bros believe i am

naivé  +pet the chickens of wrinklymen in theatres)

u pet one chicken …

but i am not waiting for herdimmunity  i’ve been immune

to the herd’s  lemmingseductions my hole life  or have i?

30 yr. mortgage

27 of which in the trenches of humanity

spat upon by savants+divorced husbands

therapist  yer just a high paid babysitter   this from

a beadyeyed psychologist  after i encouraged his

6 yr. old not to kill his mother  with scissors  (wasn’t there a feature film about this?)

and each night in this covidcrisis  i drink in the

reflection  of stars in my scotch  all smokey  with

leather  peat  +dregs of fear  but when this is over

i have BIG plans:

make the trek up bathurst st.  to squeeze my old mother

grown quarantinepeevish   the latkes are minuscule i tell u     minuscule 

carve out a jagged heart  into my newly silvered hair   a la  moses

walk down the mountain  burning bush in tow

and never come back  no mo

no mo

no mo

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“You can be a murderous tyrant and the world will remember you fondly

but fuck one horse and you will be a horse fucker for all eternity.”

(Catherine The Great  Empress of Russia  1762-1796)

COVIDSPRING  2020

when freedom’s not just another word Kris

u never know when yer doing a thing

for the last time  (obv)   then later it is  the very last time u ever saw  his face

until he turned up  bonewhite  +dusty  at the foot of a young pine

so u spend 18 mts. in a crown of thorns  +all the shiny people

give u 3  to howl like a dawg   and the chaingang of virus she’s waiting

but the boys on  Purdon  Parchman Farm  remain ball+chain averse

like you  +yer old mother    we don’t stop for nobody

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Passover 2020  ..fuckslavery..

i want to be the doll with the most cake

i lost my driver’s license today  on a covidwalk

license proofpositive  i am  real   must carry i.d.

or carted to the gulag  where stern cops pull yer

teeth    mid-gnash

war measures act  has lead to government measuring  of skulls

only way to identify u  in makeshift morgues  (no daffodils as promised  pre covid 19)

Faulkner’s  as i lay dying  is a de rigueur read   addie bundren’s

coffin  is hauled across america    +she is lost in

the mighty mississippi

last night in a fevered dream: i am  a ratty+naked barbie

hairclumped+rasta   i am in someone’s hand   plastic   with smooth privates

but who i ask u  isn’t feeling trapped  +barely human?

today my lawyer told me: it’s not fraud if no one actually  understands

how to procure the gov’t aid money!  (and no one does..)   SHOW ME THE MONEY!  

pierre elliot’s kid   he of the goatee   looking like a salt+peppered

dybbuk   all snakeoil+limp

much like relations with husband #3   after 26 days in  covidcaptivity

i asked him recently: it’s hard being human  isn’t it?   his answer:

i don’t know  that’s all i’ve ever been   +there is the rub

no clouds of glory trailing    just meat +potatoes

+malarky

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COVIDSPRING  2020  ..hands up if u think a scot can be full of malarky?..

ship o fools

in the old days they used to gather

the holy fools  onto ships  and cast them   adrift

now the ships of virusfolks are receiving

the same treatment  just like the jews

when  none was too many  sent back to

perish in camps  +ravines   (*see babi yar)

today cathal kelly sportswriter  @enough about you

comes to the following conclusion after losing

a neighbour’s dog:

..no crisis can change our societal baseline..

that people you don’t know  not only will

help you  but want very badly to do that..

hey cathal  what if bayonets were pointed

at the  helpful strangers  u glorify  and u had

a yellow star on your chest +backside?   (so they could shoot u coming+going)

what then?

for starters  your neighbour’s dog would be

on the bayonet’s tip  roasted on a spit   which

leads to the next question:

am i more afraid of the little spiky covid killers  or nazis??

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* Babi Yar: a ravine where 33,000

jews were shot in one sitting  and buried..

dead+alive.. (150,000 in total)

Spring 2020  ..Godspeed John Prine..

..covid 19 attempting to murder him.. and his bride..

shotfullofholes like bonnie parker

before

borrowing what’s left of my ego  on loan

for 6+ decades  for the uninitiated this can

feel like vampirism in reverse   cannabalism is never pretty  and it hurts to be pretty

she always said this  as hairbrush raked

through lush curls  tearing at knots   100 lashes

years later with a mute client  of a mute mother   who ran away

her sessions consisted of: her sitting on my lap   brush my hair  therapist

she stopped coming when funding ran out  shaved her head   as i am about to?

loaning your ego  is blood suck  incubusoverload   devoured by

the wounded  moats with gators in ’em  are good in these instances

suckers want your strength  want to live inside u   u the host  ess

with the most  ess     (in yiddish ess is eat…duh!)

one night in a posh hotel  in a picaresque town  where trinkets abound

in the dead of night  in your twin doubles  u awaken

to a persistent pressure at the edges of your previously  permeable boundary

+there stands the childhood creature   hairy+black

a bit mother-ish  a bit hagfromhell-ish  pressing  keening

let me in!  your house is  whole  holy   mine is  leaking  

shot full of holes    and i’m cold too  

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after

Bonnie Parker Barrows  Poet+Bankrobber

SPRING 2020  ..resurrection around the corner..and if u believe that..

i have a piece of land    in florida..

goingviral

a man in overalls sneezed wet  as my bro

+ i walked by  trying to maintain proper

social distancing  he lumbered near

+on a whim i spat at him  whereupon

my bro used the billybat father had   given him

war measures act defunct  as citizens

take covid into own hands  what 10 things

will u do when covid ends   my own list full

of  tepidbluster  +digression  a covidfog setting in?

(1)

hunt the deathhawk stalking our family   +crapping all over the balcony

(2)

smash the latch on old mother’s cage

been inside for 40 days  exodus up  bathurst st.

not pretty  most won’t make it   to sea-hi

where chinese food is the new  manna

they stand with their begging bowls   please sir  a bit of pork?  some suey?

but i digress

(3)

get an elvis cut   because the beauty

jig is up?  red hairball catches covid   as strident hair artist extorts u

more digression   i guess there’s really

only one thing to do after a pandemic   (your first is always intense)

get your fingers into the folds of skin

working the leathery hide off of ribs

being in a body is highly overrated  and always has been

except for about 5 seconds  at 18

when like a young god u prepare  to begin      (the beguine?)

maybe that’s what the song means

u glistening  with no  might have beens

recently a youthful individual said to me:

i don’t want to have regrets

as mrs death pissed in a circle around his  naivety

regrets   the rude remnants  of other people’s dreams?

if u were supposed to have it all   u woulda     coulda shoulda

now u r  free    what the fuckelse do u wanna be?

but i digress

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Spring Equinox  2020

visiting hours are over

repatriate my ego  gone girl  gone

jettisoned by late 50’s  decade of

preparations for the long sleeeep

creep of a reaper rubbing hands together

in a corner  fly undone

u need an ego to fight the fight

every 7 yr. old knows this  i can do it myself  

paws off me helpful people!    i.e. mum+dad

but most importantly  in these

virus days we must act as though

these are the   LASTDAYS

or the survival instinct  will not kick in

the one that propels us to gnaw off a  limb

the one that propels us to cover the mouths

of children crying on trains   some died of asphyxiation

on sunday we said good bye to our old

mum  95  now being kept alive by herring  + watery lasagna

but survive she will

because  in order to still be kicking + screaming   (at us)

she must be made of  montreal steel  like our departed

montreal brother  these people are indomitable

until they  are not

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CovidWinter  2020

free anne frank

i’m thinking about anne a lot these days

at 13 i became enamoured of her  in a BIGWAY

i can still see her darkeyes + curly hair

i had those too  and i fought with my own

mother  like anne  over make-up  boys  +cigs!

but i didn’t have 3 other families living in my

house  which was 10x the size of anne’s attic

just navigating the vicissitudes of purdon dr.

was war enough  at times  otherwise a place   of love + giant dogs  +football

no ovens waiting  only promise  and so

much freedom  we squandered it  and still

had enough to take it lightly  shreds of freedom  the alchemist’s gold

the dung beetle’s dung   need i say more?   ok i’ll stop

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CovidWinter  2020

..we celebrate the exodus in 2 weeks..hoping elijah will not be selfisolating..