songanddancegirl

MOST

WE ARE HERE FOR A FEW HOURS  A DAY AT MOST

At 3:42 this morning a friend wrote me: your site sucks

Now a driving snow falls around me  clinging to merlot hair

Turning it into the silver fox  it wants to be   Was it a lack of

civility  or just ballsy honesty?

In the dumbeddowndonald world it’s hard to tell   Yesterday

I heard Conrad Black say: Trump was charming  Funny   A great  

guy!  But who’s going to believe Unlord Connie?   Later I saw

Lenny Bruce on: The History of Comedy  which wasn’t that funny

Lenny was lying on the bathroom floor  naked   Dying from FBI

harassment  +bad drugs   He took on the Catholic church  at a time

when molestation by priests was still deep in the closets of every

diocese on Earth

I guess I don’t so much mind the friend’s honesty  though it stings

But you gotta know the his life would suck balls without me   Thank

you Lenny  for paving the way   for my salty poetry    RIP

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Winter  2017

TINY

WE DON’T WANT YOUR TINY HANDS

ANYWHERE NEAR OUR UNDERPANTS

Sitting in a cool cafe  I have the urge to strip +Go Go dance in the

bay window  It couldn’t be as bad as Ga Ga’s gagworthy uncall  to

revolution  at the 51st Super Bowl last night   With all the pussy

shaking  no doubt the Donald  will make a bee line for her underpants

This morning my 93 yr. old mum tweeted: I wouldn’t give five cents to

see Ga Ga!   Me either   In fact my concert going days may be over

At the Drive By Trucker’s show on Saturday  I went out cold   Heat

prostration   +hard hip bods  profusely pressing against me   Ditto at

Trombone Shorty   Jazzfest T.O.  2013    200 degrees under that fucking

tin tent someone brilliant invented   Airless  soulless  hellhole  where groove

starved Canadians huddle each Summer

Had my 1st porta-potty experience there  Mrs. Phyllis Schneider accompanied

me to pee  +sold tickets to the lined up crowd  10 deep    She’s never been in a 

porta-potty!  she screamed    A rancid smell hit me like a ton of bricks  + I was

knocked to the floor  when someone eagerly bounced onto the commode next

door

As I emerged green behind the gills  the crowd lifted me onto their shoulders

Jazzfest prima donna  Comrags dress  sticky-sweet   After the show I headed

for Shorty  who I know from a Treme bar   Troy is shy  with lush t. bone lips

To see him reef is to enter an altered state  imagining all the possibilities

Today as we commiserated about concert blackouts  +toileting experiences therein

a wise friend said to me:  Freedom may be an illusion  which I am loathe to believe

though the certainty is slowly dawning on me   Now I am dancing buck (!)   in the

window at the Cygnet Cafe   +small Portuguese people are gathering   as the priest

from St. Helena’s across the street has entered with unctions  + a Chicago 58 salami

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(You’re all alone and filled with fear, and the billionaire says

what you need to hear. He’s never worked a day in his life,

but he’s on your side.   Moby  2016)

Winter  2017     for Spooner

never stop going to concerts  

+never lose your sense of humour..

RESURRECTIONS

AND RESURRECTIONS

I have a friend who quoted Woody Allen

one day 25 yrs. ago   He said:  80%

of life is just: showing up

I answer now

And the remaining

20% involves:

kicking & screaming 

watching & waiting

lusting & alighting

&  goodbyes

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Winter 2017    *written as Malcolm X  Fall 2012

MARY

MARY MARY  WHERE YOU GOING TO?

Mary died today  Tyler Moore   Remember her

throwing her pink hat into the air?  Did she turn

the world on with her smile?   Far too wholesome

+toothsome  even for then   You wanted to see her

a little messed up  neat skirt askew  after a few  too many

It was 1977  but felt more Laura Petrie repressed  than the

vanguard of Women’s Lib.   She seemed virginal in those

Audrey-esque suits  with small pointy breasts   Perhaps even

an Electra complex simmering underneath  for Ed    Gruff

father figure  sleeves rolled up   Perhaps even a seduction on

his desk?

Mary’s own father died of cancer in 92  after an unsuccessful

suicide attempt assisted by Mary   Her only child Richard died

when a gun went off in his hands  at 24   There were stints too at

the Betty Ford   Real life savaged the ingenue   Dark eyed + lush

lipped   Demons flattened themselves against lithe frame   Ed now

plays a psychoanalyst on TV    Doesn’t look like Ed  anymore

When our TV stars start dying  we lose the demi-gods whose

visitations in our living rooms  where our parents rested middle

aged bodies  were the glory days    When we really had it made –

Your choice   you can cling to your past  or to your future

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*(creepy orange DJT  signed an executive order to have Mary

buried in the White House rose garden) 

Winter  2017    RIP Mary Tyler Moore  1936-2017

LIES

ANY CHILD OVER FIVE KNOWS THAT

ALTERNATIVE FACTS ARE CALLED LIES

Even the anarchist Emma Goldman repeatedly arrested

+deported  cited the: generous heart of America   And

knew that the beacon for  the wretched refuse of the teeming

shores  of the earth   America   gave the huddled masses 

the golden door of immigration

Yesterday the  banality of evil  broke free once more  Unseen

in such healthy doses since being coined at the Eichmann trial

in 1962  Rampaging through airports across the globe  as the

hater with yellow hair  pounded his Tarzan chest  Yes  king of the

neo-jungle  where white haired grandparents give him an A+ for

his 1st week’s performance as liar in chief

Echoing the average citizens who at first simply attended to the

menial labours of the Reich   Yesterday families were torn apart

None is too many  is too many  once more   Alternative fact: this

is not a Muslim ban   Fact: Christians will be let in

Making America safe again  involves  making America hate again

+ in giving ISIS fuel for butchering  bombing  +beheading  with

impunity   Has chief devil worshipper Bannon  of the shaggy hair

+hangdog smile  never heard of homegrown terrorism?   Fact:

All Jews will wear the yellow star of David  on front+back  the better

to hit the target  coming +going

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The Truth:

No person accepted into the U.S. as a refugee, Syrian or otherwise,

has been implicated in a major fatal terrorist attack in the U.S. since

the Refugee Act of 1980. Prior to this 3 Cuban refugees carried out 

attacks killing 3 people. Perpetrators of major terror attacks have been

mostly U.S.born citizens or permanent legal residents from countries

not included in the ban.

Winter 2017    …Repetition Compulsion….The Old Colossus

PUSSY

THE RECLAMATION OF THE PUSSY PROCLAMATION

If you looked closely you could see the undercurrent

of despair amidst the sea of smiles  the sea of pink pussy

hats   In a parallel world they marched nude  covered in

honey+feathers  sweet+savage Joan’s of Arc  ready to be

burned at the stake for de-throning a pussy grabbing despotic

billionaire  with pouffy yellow hair  +a sucker-like mouth

Women with: Pussies that grab back  on placards around the globe

Women whose erogenous zones stretch over their entire bodies  Far

superior to their masculine counterparts   Jim Pfaus  professor at

Concordia U  has catalogued the: truly remarkable variety of

orgasmic zones among women  including the ignoble earlobe

Next thing you know the repugnant boy Prez  will be sniffing out

earlobes  (When you’re famous they let you do it  You can do anything

You can grab them by the pussy)  Women still protesting basic human

rights  Dozens carried the placard: Can’t believe we’re still protesting

this crap!   In 2016 a woman professor was kept in solitary for 3 months

in Iran until near death:  for dabbling in feminism

But while Putin may have put the Donald in  can pussypower really take him

out?   Maybe come 2020  But in the meantime on a freezing Toronto street last

night  a skeletal woman approached a male friend    She was naked from the waist

 down   I’m working   she screamed

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And even you want nothing more than a plate of eggs at some sidewalk

cafe.  As he smiles like a man who knows how to crack a safe.

(Tracey K. Smith  Life On Mars   2011   Pulitzer Prize winner)

To be sane in a world of madmen is in itself a kind of madness.

(J. J. Rousseau)

42% of U.S. women voted for Trump. Among white women it was 53%.

The people we saw Saturday simply reflect the Democratic base. The lesson

of the women’s march is that women are as divided as the country. And the

secret of defeating Trump is not more identity politics, but less.

Globe & Mail   M. Wente   January 24, 2017

Winter  2017

MESSIAH

LIKE A LEPER MESSIAH

Flaming red hair  pointy nose  skeletal around

cheekbones  Bowie won  + Neil Young stopped

high pitched droning  on+on in suburban bedroom

Home  after pot  +teasing future lawyers  Bowie blaring

made jazz-cat father shake his head

Not the ire reserved for Mick   Just freaked out in a teenage

wasteland glare when I took off with platform soul  +speed

freak’s sister   Wandered the streets at 3 am     Blind Faith

album cover  caused ego to split   Why did those little-girl

breasts  look so bruised?

Tripping out in front of synagogue  where Rabbi with carrot orange

hair presided (all 5 kids gingers too)  I knew those streets  full of

survivors  screaming at dawn   Only just making a clean break   A fresh

start    Still the same rock & roll bitch at heart

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Winter  2017

BLOOD

BECAUSE NOTHING BUT BLOOD HAS THE

POWER TO RESONATE AGAINST THE VOID

One of the ugliest buildings in Toronto  surely

Robards Library  Grey hulking monolith  wicked

wind tunnel  forcing skirts  +once in 76  lifting feet

off of ground   as creepy law student don juan proposed

lunch   Later removing his shirt to reveal 3 nipples

Saw him on the evening news 40 yrs. later  on the little

sidebar beside the weather  now a creepy criminal lawyer

In a parallel world we did not have children   What is your

list of things you are  certain  will happen?

There is a smell in the air today  that only you can smell   And you

want to hold onto your old comfortable fears  If you stop worrying

about them  will the outcome change?  Hard to say what these

harbingers might mean  so I cling to mine steadfastly

The list:

1. aliens will arrive
2. one day I will be kidnapped to a bunker
3. mortal illness imminent
4. serial killer in house/short+scruffy
5. somewhere crematoria are being built behind a scrim
6. there is an afterlife  it is your breath  רוח Ruach (literally  wind)

I do know what my father would have said or done  in any of these

situations   Even though he isn’t here to   I think he will always have

a say    On taking up horseback riding at 30: That’s a 2000 lb. animal

if you’re afraid  it will know   On neighbour’s slight lover saying he

played college ball: He’s full of shit    On God: I doubt it

On atheists coming to believe as they get closer to death: belly laugh

A super-human faith  He never did equivocate  or take the bait   Ever

Daughter of horseback riding man catches birds with a salt shaker

He said: Just shake some on their tails

I lay in wait for hours   Learned how to be still  +small    Never caught a

bird at all   Now I wait  for words  sometimes birds   sometimes freedom

Super-human faith    Father radiates  in all kinds of places

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His eyes were very blue and very beautiful half hid away

in the leathery seams of his face.

(Cormac McCarthy  The Crossing  1995)

Lee  1921-1989

Winter 2017

93 days to 60  a precious wildness simmers in the jaded botch

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There’s no shortage of tormented things. Far from mirrors I feed

dreams of fame+travel, extraordinary men offering me necklaces,

words that can be eaten they’re so sweet, so warm, so corporeal.

Adelia Prado  1981

BEES

DON’T GO KILLING ALL THE BEES

Charlie Mason is 82!  Can you imagine him

an old stooped man?  Those blazing eyes  Was

that a swastika carved inbetween?  Seems so

if memory serves  but that was a lifetime ago

Headlines gruesome   DEATH TO PIGS

scrawled on wall  in Sharon+unborn baby’s blood

Is this what warped Polanski  or is this a chicken

+egg question?

Charlie rotting in Corcoran State Prison  has been

in hospital for undisclosed treatment  Cancer?  Aids?

Was he insane  or just a mid-century hater?  Charismatic

+blood lusting  run of the mill messianic power over drifter

girls   One with my last name

I certainly fell for a sociopath or 2   one from a town in Poland

But how could Sadie be duped by Charlie  a blossoming psychopath?

Certainly my childlike naiveté paved the way for trust  later in the

trenches of humanity   30yrs. of sandbox play  Confessional of frailty

+depravity  of children’s waking dreams

She lay in the sandbox   Stained tabernacle   10yrs.old

She said: Now  you  rape me  therapist   My father had

no problems  Don’t tell me he was sick!  He knew what he

wanted    There was nothing wrong with him

Therapist’s epiphanic reflection: 

So he was selfish+cruel+didn’t care about you  

Unsought for  Undeserved

Fuck yes!  said wisechild with Tourette’s

In these first days of 2017 let us continue to speak of

madness unleashed  On Saturday at Fort York  2 beehives

sliced open  leaving bees in cold to freeze  But this poem

is not relentlessly bleak   The truth may often be where havoc

has been wreaked  In savaged girl who at her core a gentleness

was sheltered

There too  a dusty hope  for a fresh start  in small town Ontario

where mother had been transferred    This  un-poisoning the world’s

Soul   And  3 of the bees  reportedly thawed  will repopulate the hives

come Spring!

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This new man will hardly know the hour of his turning nor the source

of it. Yet he will have in his possession that elusive freedom which men

seek with unending desperation. (Cormac McCarthy  The Crossing  1994)

12th Night/Epiphany  2017   BELIEVE

PERIOD

OLYMPIC SWIMMER LAUDED FOR TALKING ABOUT PERIOD

The video has gone viral   responses like: HERO!

Red waves   Crimson tides  abound   Some worried

that: dizzy bleeding disoriented women in pools  might

lead to infertility issues for male athletes (!)  

Some tweets lauded Jews for segregating women+men

during prayer  without understanding the underpinnings

The real reason for this separation is so that men+women

will not be distracted  thereby ignoring the Godhead  trading

the sacred  for the profane

Separations of men+women have been undertaken as well for

the purposes of gassing in WWII   Ditto the burnings at Salem

circa 1692   The young woman in question at the Rio games was

beside the pool  writhing in pain   She was from the Chinese

contingent  +rose to glory in a country with 1 child policy   Where

girl babies were known to be drowned like kittens  +left by the

roadside  in droves

Now think of the lowly worm  so advanced that it possesses both male

+female reproductive organs   A perfect duality  slithering on its belly

While the glorious biped ape continues to wreak havoc  +cannot even

decide who should use which bathroom  without an act of state

Yes I present you with the glorious worm   King of putrefaction  especially

of cheese  +bread   making no distinction between man+woman

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(August 18, 2016)

One-child policy has also led to Missing Women, or the 100 million girls

missing from the populations of China (and other developing countries) as a result 

of female infanticide, abandonment, and neglect.